I am. Don’t get me wrong…but I’m just worried about how she feels.
I was worried about this..I don’t want her to feel like I’m replacing her with this baby. Yes, its sorta of a second chance that I never got with her and I regret what I did but still I don’t want her to feel replaced.
Yeah. Yeah, I get it. Look, I… I’m sorry, this sounds really horrible, but I can’t… I just… I can’t talk about this right now.
Yeah..like I said I really screwed up. I didn’t mean to get pregnant. It was one night.
Maybe you should just be grateful.
Yeah..it seems that Imogen and I are back to square one again.
It’d be so much easier if she could just believe him. Know what he was saying was true without having any doubts. It wasn’t like she thought he was lying or just telling her what she wanted to hear. It was just.. hard not to feel unsure about it all. Ruby felt like his mind had been changed over night but he said it hadn’t. And okay, she didn’t really think it’d happened that fast but still. It seemed all of the sudden to her but ugh. She probably should’ve just been happy his mind changed at all. That he wanted what she did.. or what she thought she did. It was still difficult to sort through her own mind and though she was trying it felt like a lot of work. Ruby was glad that he didn’t still feel like he couldn’t be with her but she still has that feeling of uncertainty. Why couldn’t it go away? She really did want to believe him but she was still scared. What if he decided tomorrow that he’d been wrong. That he couldn’t do this. He was right about not being able to know what would happen but.. was it worth the risk? She thought so but at the same time it felt like they’d caused each other enough pain. Shouldn’t they just stop? Let this go.
It was just hard to want to when she missed him. When she felt like she did and she worried if he did decide this wasn’t what he wanted that she’d never get over it. That was probably dumb but she’d only ever felt this way about him. Was that because she wasn’t open to feeling it about anyone else? Ruby didn’t know but.. she loved him. It was strange to even think of loving someone else that way. But it happened, right? The fact that Charlie was here was proof of that. She nodded as he spoke. It all made sense and she could understand why he’d feel that way. Ruby didn’t deny that she had worried about him, wanted to make sure he was okay, but not in the way he thought. “I.. get it.” She squeezed his hand lightly. “But I think it’s okay to need someone to be there..”
Maybe this was stupid. He wasn’t even sure what she wanted, despite the fact she’d just said out loud that she wanted to be with him. Didn’t mean that’s how it was going to end up. Didn’t really mean that she thought she should be, either. He glanced down as she squeezed his hand and nodded. “Yeah.” He looked back up with a sigh. “I know it is.” It wasn’t exactly easy to tell yourself that when you felt a certain way but Charlie knew it was okay to need someone. He didn’t exactly have people lining up at his door to be there for him but still. He went quiet, not sure what else to say. He felt like she still didn’t really believe what he was saying. Maybe he was reading too much into it or something but he was worried he wouldn’t be able to convince her. Maybe he should have just let her go. He’d had plenty of chances, hadn’t he?
"I’m not going to change my mind again." He said, after a moment as he thought over what she’d said the other day. True, he couldn’t tell her what was going to happen, he couldn’t see the future and be certain. "Or.. I’m not going to change my mind any time soon." That didn’t sound reassuring and he sighed again, looking away across the room. A beat passed and then he spoke again. "What are you so scared of?" It couldn’t just be that, could it? Of him changing his mind. There had to be more to it. Maybe she was scared of lots of things but if she didn’t say them then how was he supposed to know? Maybe it wasn’t even necessarily about him but.. he didn’t know. Charlie looked at her again but didn’t say anything else. He was tired of these talks always going nowhere, he didn’t think he could handle another one hitting a dead end. If they couldn’t find a way over, or around, the communication roadblock then… maybe there really was no hope. He loved all the other stuff but being that way together, and that way only, didn’t help their relationship either. Something had to be different and Charlie felt different enough. He just didn’t know if that was meant to be good or bad.
Yeah..my reaction exactly. When he thought about things, he came to me and told me that I needed to move in with him and marry him. Talked him out of the marrying part and talked him into moving in here. I screwed up though, Charlie.
No fighting. I promise.
No…ummm I’m pregnant. By him.
Oh, you’re… wow.
No..Charlie its fine. Come and talk to me.
Are you sure? I don’t want to fight..
Umm..Hale is moving in.
Are you kidding?
Can we do anything at all?
I don’t know. Look, I, uh.. I’m thinking about selling the house.